Translated by Eve
Eve: This isn’t a chapter title. The chapter was locked so I had to find it on a pirate site which didn’t have the chapter title.
Trigger warning: Dubious consent (Well, more than usual since some of those kisses before were also dubcon)
And thank you buggy for the kofi~
Song Xuanhe blinked and then shifted his gaze away. “We were talking about you leaving the country and us breaking up. Since we’ve already broken up, there’s no reason to talk about whether or not you were a substitute.”
“Fine.” Song Xuanhe then looked back down at the two photos. Although he had wanted to say “yes” and tell Xiao Yuanmu that he was Xiao Shenglin’s substitute, he didn’t want to drag Xiao Shenglin into his and Xiao Yuanmu’s affairs. Moreover, Xiao Shenglin really hadn’t been a factor in his relationship with Xiao Yuanmu. Therefore, Song Xuanhe said, “But since you wanted an answer, I’ll give you one: no. Xiao Shenglin has nothing to do with my relationship with you. I only see him as a friend.”
Xiao Yuanmu examined Song Xuanhe’s expression carefully. The arc of his smile deepened. “I believe you.”
“Now that we’ve cleared things up.” Song Xuanhe threw the photos onto the table and raised a brow. “I’m hungry. How about making the noodles now?”
Xiao Yuanmu paused. He then got up and raised Song Xuanhe’s chin. He planted a kiss on the other’s lips before leaving.
【Did the original host like Xiao Shenglin?】Song Xuanhe asked in his mind：【Why don’t I have any memories of this?】
【I don’t know, ah!】The System was also confused. 【I can confirm that you have the original Song Xuanhe’s complete memory. Oh, but, it’s possible that the main god had muddled the memories it had deemed useless.】
【What do you mean?】
The two pictures just now had really hit Song Xuanhe hard. Xiao Shenglin had always been gentle, courteous, and amiable ever since he had met him. The original host hadn’t had many memories related to Xiao Shenglin, and his impression of the other had also been really ordinary. That had been why Song Xuanhe had only chatted with Xiao Shenglin briefly when they had met for the first time and hadn’t carefully combed through his memories.
When he had heard the System say this now, Song Xuanhe felt his heart thud. A bad feeling arose in his chest.
The System confirmed his conjecture：【Like…if the main god decided that a certain memory will be useless to the mission or may even influence the mission, it might remove any feelings that the original host might have had regarding that particular memory. Although the memory you had received is complete, you won’t be able to feel what the original host had been feeling during that memory. Without the emotions, the memories will feel a bit off.】
【A bit off?】Song Xuanhe repeated these de-emphasizing words. He didn’t know if he was angry or vexed. However, when he thought about the situation he was in right now, he quickly calmed down ：【In any case, it’s over now. Tell me now if there’s anything you’re still hiding from me or if there’s any other issues with my memories.】
【There’s nothing else.】
【Really?】
【Really!】The System said：【But anyway, what do you plan on doing with the big shot? Except for when his emotions are fluctuating violently, I can’t accurately determine his emotions anymore. I can’t offer you any more help. You’re on your own.】
As if the System had ever given him any help before.
Song Xuanhe was already used to how useless the System was：【It’s enough for you to not drag me down.】
【The big shot is done cooking!】The System had been monitoring the movements of the other person in the apartment. It promptly said：【I don’t think that it’s a wise idea to break up with the big shot. In any case, you two won’t even be on the same continent. It doesn’t matter whether you two break up or not. I checked Xiao Yuanmu’s emotional fluctuation values when you had mentioned breaking up. They were unprecedentedly high, high enough that even I had been able to detect them. Therefore, I think that it’d be best if you just went along with him for now. Oh, the big shot’s coming over. Brother, take care.】
A second before Xiao Yuanmu had stepped back into the living room, Song Xuanhe looked up. At the moment Xiao Yuanmu’s gaze met Song Xuanhe’s, a strange emotion suddenly arose in his chest. Before he could mull over it, Song Xuanhe stood up. “Are the noodles done?”
Xiao Yuanmu nodded, and Song Xuanhe walked over to him.
It had been half a month since Song Xuanhe had last eaten Xiao Yuanmu’s noodles in egg and tomato sauce. Song Xuanhe concentrated on meticulously savouring the dish’s taste and temporarily threw the matter of breaking up into the back of his mind.
Xiao Yuanmu hadn’t been planning on eating. However, after watching Song Xuanhe eat, he had also unwittingly ended up eating a bowl.
“Thank you for the noodles. They were really delicious.” Song Xuanhe placed his chopsticks down. He wanted to raise the matter of Xiao Yuanmu leaving again. He thought it over for a moment and then asked, “When are you going to America?”
Xiao Yuanmu was clearing the table. When he heard this, he paused and lowered his gaze. “Very soon.”
Song Xuanhe pursed his lips and didn’t ask further.
Everything went quiet. Song Xuanhe sat in the dining room, motionless. When he saw that Xiao Yuanmu had finished tidying up, he stood up and said, “It’s getting late. I’ll be heading back now.”
“In three hours.”
Song Xuanhe was caught off guard. “What’s in three hours?”
“When I’m going to America.”
Song Xuanhe’s eyes widened slightly. “In the AM?”
Xiao Yuanmu nodded. An indistinct, baffling anger bubbled up inside Song Xuanhe’s chest. However, it only lasted a second before he managed to quell it. He said in a calm voice, “I still have to go to work tomorrow. I won’t be seeing you off. Let’s meet again if we have the chance.”
After saying that, he headed towards the door. As he was putting on his shoes, he remembered that he left his cell on the sofa. He was about to take his shoes back off to get it but noticed that Xiao Yuanmu had already brought it over.
Song Xuanhe reached out a hand: “Thank you.”
“Are you angry?” Xiao Yuanmu’s hand that was holding his cell phone hung by his side. He didn’t move to give it back. There was an imperceptible upward arc of his lips and a hint of anticipation in his chilly voice that he probably didn’t even notice himself.
“Why would I be angry?” Song Xuanhe folded his arms. “We’ve already broken up. Let’s part on good terms. I wouldn’t bother getting angry at an ex.”
“I didn’t agree to us breaking up.” Xiao Yuanmu’s smile flattened, and his eyes darkened.
Song Xuanhe grinned. “I thought we had already come to an agreement.”
Xiao Yuanmu stared at him for a few seconds. When he saw that the other didn’t intend to expand on that, he smiled in anger. “You were the one to start this back then. Now, you’re also the one to end it. The one who started it has also ended it. Very good.”
Song Xuanhe raised a brow but remained silent.
Xiao Yuanmu closed in on Song Xuanhe and spoke in an even tone. “But, I really do regret not having fulfilled my obligations as your boyfriend. Before we finalize this agreement, I should carry out my duties at least once.”
When there was only half a step between them, a sense of danger climbed up along Song Xuanhe’s spine. He took a discreet step back, but he didn’t show any timidity. “What do you want to do?”
In the span of one breath, Xiao Yuanmu had managed to grab hold of Song Xuanhe’s wrists. Before the other could react, Xiao Yuanmu had already pressed Song Xuanhe’s hands against the wall with one hand. With his other hand, he undid the buttons on Song Xuanhe’s shirt. He peered down at the shorter man, his voice so quiet that it sounded like a murmur. “I have a duty to do what lovers do with you.”
It wasn’t until a cold breeze, which had come through the opened balcony door, swept over his bare abdomen that Song Xuanhe belatedly realized what was happening. He had forgotten to resist in his shock. He only stared at Xiao Yuanmu dumbly as he thought, What can Xiao Yuanmu do if he can’t get me hard?
Xiao Yuanmu didn’t give him much time to think. He closed his eyes and pressed his lips against Song Xuanhe’s. He sucked on Song Xuanhe’s lips for a moment before sticking his tongue into the other’s mouth. The hand that had just undid the other’s buttons drifted downwards, and he pulled down Song Xuanhe’s pants with deft fingers. He then straightforwardly grabbed onto Song Xuanhe down there.
Song Xuanhe jolted. His hands that were now trapped behind him began to squirm. Xiao Yuanmu’s lips shifted to his earlobe, and he used his teeth to nip at it gently. He then used his tongue to lick at it, causing Song Xuanhe to shiver. For the first time, Song Xuanhe realized that his ears were this sensitive. All of his strength drained from his body in an instant.
In contrast, little Xuanhe slowly lifted his head.
Xiao Yuanmu chuckled quietly, but his hand around little Xuanhe didn’t stop. Feeling the other’s tense body and his attempts to struggle out of his hold, he spoke in a low, hushed voice, “Didn’t I tell you before that I’ll check…?”
“Don’t…push it..” Song Xuanhe sucked in a deep breath. He turned his face away, trying to avoid Xiao Yuanmu’s kisses on his neck. He gritted his teeth. “Even if I had lied to you...”
Xiao Yuanmu’s hand sped up, and Song Xuanhe’s body went soft. His ears buzzed. A moment later, he reacted, body going stiff.
“Looks like…you didn’t lie to me.”
Xiao Yuanmu’s chuckle echoed in his ears. Song Xuanhe gnashed his teeth. He was about to say something when his whole body tensed up again. His eyes widened in disbelief—Xiao Yuanmu’s hand had moved to his behind.
……
The afterglow had yet to wear off. The balcony door was also still open, and the chilly wind had entered the warm living room. The faint scent that came “after the deed” circulated the room with the breeze as it warmed up.
Song Xuanhe, who was sitting on the sofa, only had on an unbuttoned white shirt. His face was still flushed, and he was currently glaring at Xiao Yuanmu, who was putting on a similarly styled black shirt. He gnashed his teeth and then squeezed his words out from between his teeth in a hoarse voice. “Just you wait!”
Xiao Yuanmu stuck the cufflinks he had taken off of Song Xuanhe’s shirt into his neatly arranged cuffs. He calmly put them in place before fastening them.
“I’ll wait for you.”
Xiao Yuanmu was obviously in a good mood. The smile on his face was gentle like never before. His eyes no longer held any coldness. Instead, there was affection within them. He walked over to Song Xuanhe and peered down at him. A few seconds later, he rubbed the other’s swollen, red lips with the pads of his finger. The love in his peach blossom eyes deepened, and there was a rasp to his chilly voice. It was clear that he still wanted more. “But, I won’t let you off so easily next time.”
Song Xuanhe raised his hand, wanting to punch Xiao Yuanmu in the nose. However, his arms were sore as if he had been holding up steel beams for two hours. Actually, that was about right.
When Xiao Yuanmu’s hand had shifted to his behind, he hadn’t noticed it at first. It hadn’t been until the other had almost stuck a finger in that he realized what the other had wanted to do. At that point, he had started to struggle intensely.
But, Xiao Yuanmu had his weak spot—that area was every man’s weak spot—in his hand. With just a flick of his wrist, he was able to drain all of Song Xuanhe’s strength. The only thing to be happy about was that Xiao Yuanmu fortunately had only had one hand available. He couldn’t do anything to him. In the end, they had ended up “helping” each other out….
During their mutual help session, Song Xuanhe had completely forgotten about his fear of losing his virginity. Instead, he had felt humiliated! He admitted that he lost to Xiao Yuanmu when it came to the physical aspects of it, but the difference in their endurance also had been too much! The only thought that was left in his head had been: I need to wash myself of this shame and redeem my lost glory.
A score of four to zero. Song Xuanhe was certain that it must be an issue with the original host and not him.
It might have been because Xiao Yuanmu’s smile was too irritating or because the crisis of losing his virginity had only lasted a second, but the attack on his self-esteem had overcome the fear. Song Xuanhe had basically forgotten all about breaking up as he blurted out nonsense. “Just you wait, I’ll let you know just who won’t be letting off who.”
The author has something to say: Today again, Xuan baby thinks that he will one day gain the upper hand.
Big shot Xiao will be temporarily offline. It will be a very short absence. Therefore, I decided to give all you big shots a little treat in advance (we live in a strict and harmonious society right now. To avoid getting this chapter locked, please don’t mention any non-harmonious words, including cars, smut, etc. Otherwise, I’ll have to simplify it to one simple sentence. Yingyingying.)
Eve: I lowkey kind of wanted SXH to say yes because I do love dogblood HAHA. But this is better for their relationship so I’m still happy. Anyway, that’s really as close to a steamy scene as we’ll ever get hahaha. Curse the censorship crabs!!! Even this ended up locked!!!
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