Lin Ran revealed what had touched the saddest part in her heart. Her nose twitched and her tears fell down like a stream.
“I’m an unsatisfying sister, an unsatisfying daughter—all I can do is be reckless which Lin Nuan’s father caused by pampering me too much! What you see as my shortcomings isn’t something I can choose. If I have to be extra cautious in front of my own blood-parents, I’m sorry… but I can’t do this. In my heart, all of you people owe me! Especially Lin Nuan! She’s the one who stole everything that belonged to me and turned into what I was supposed to be! She stole my life!”
Lin Ran almost screamed out of desperation.
The relatives of the patients in the other wards opened their doors and were about to come out and yell at whoever was making so much noise. But as soon as they saw the intimidating Lin Chen, they chose to stand at their doors and watch the scene, without daring to come forward.
The nurses from the nurse station were about to stop Lin Ran from making so much noise in the hallway. But as soon as they saw Lin Chen’s furious face, they chose to watch silently.
“Didn’t Grandmother say I wasn’t as serene as other girls, that I was tough like a wild-bred horse? I’ll tell you where this came from! Because I was bullied since a kid, chased with rocks by children my age… they hit my head until it was bleeding all over with wounds and said I had a mad mother and that I was a mini-mad kid! If I wasn’t tough in my personality, I’d just get mistreated by even more people! You guys never understood what I went through as a child, what right do you have to criticize me?
“What’s wrong with me going to the Gu Family to find Gu Shaoting to let him know I have feelings for him? I should be the one getting engaged to Gu Shaoting! By what right does your mother get to say I have no love for myself? As a child, my experience told me that I should do everything I can to pursue what I want. Even if I can’t get it, at least I gave it all that I had! What kind of lady etiquette is this… what kind of girlish courtesy is this? For me, it’s not nearly as important as my happiness! What’s wrong with me giving my all to pursue the person I like? If the ladies in your upper class are supposed to watch happiness slip right before their very eyes, then all I can say is: I ‘m sorry, but I won’t ever become the lady you all expect to see in this lifetime! Let Lin Nuan be the official lady of the Lin Family! From now on I won’t have anything to do with the Lin Family!”
Lin Ran’s chest was heaving up and down. These words had been suppressed in her heart for too long.
Even if it was a minute ago, she wouldn’t have imagined herself saying all that to Lin Chen.
Lin Ran’s words left Lin Chen slightly in shock.
If you like something, you should give everything you have to get it? Really?
Looking at the way Lin Ran was staring at him, Lin Nuan didn’t say anything. She left the thermos bottle on the seat in the hallway, then turned around and quietly left.
…
Lin Nuan stood at the edge of the stairs at the entrance to the hospital. She looked down and stared at her half-wet black pants and her pair of white sneakers newly stained by mud. She felt empty inside.
She’d left in a hurry just then. She had jogged back to the hospital entrance in the rain and then suddenly recalled that her purse was still in Liang Mulan’s ward with her phone and wallet inside. She hesitated whether she should go back to get it.
The pouring rain grew weaker until it lightened to just a drizzle from the sky. It was only half past four and the sky began to turn dark and heavy.
The soft orange headlights emanating from the hospital entrance morphed into circles of blurry sparks in the rain, enveloping Lin Nuan like a layer of haze.
On the wide road, cars passed here and there, their lights intersecting with the colors of the rainbow. Lin Nuan’s sniffed her slightly red nose.
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