Shishio knew that Shiina's way of thinking was different from a normal person's, so he wasn't sure what she meant by taking responsibility, and she even made a misleading movement by putting both of her hands on her stomach. "Sorry, Mashiro, I don't understand." He wasn't the type who would mull over things, and if he had something that bothered him, he wouldn't hesitate to ask directly since he didn't like to waste time.
Shiina titled her head and she was also confused at why Shishio couldn't understand. "I want you to take responsibility." She then repeated her words, thinking that he might understand that way.
"As for?" Shishio asked.
"As for what you have said before," Shiina said without looking away from Shishio.
"Oh!" Shishio nodded and asked, "So you mean that I'll support you no matter what?" He understood that Shiina asked him about the words that he had said before, but at the same time, he had to admit it a genius was different from an ordinary person, after all, she could make such a life decision with just a few hours. If it was an ordinary person, then they would mull over and in the end, they didn't make a decision. Still, as he had said before, no matter what her decision was, he would support her no matter what.
Shiina nodded gently.
Shishio thought for a bit and said, "Do you want to talk in my room?"
"Um." Shiina nodded and in truth, she was also curious about Shishio's room and wanted to see what was inside.
Shishio smiled and said, "Welcome." His intention to invite Shiina to enter his room was very pure, and he didn't have the slightest or a lot of dirty thought on his mind since he knew very well that Shiina was incapable to think such a dirty mind, after all, she was very pure and she didn't know much about perverted things, unless, someone told her, or she might be affected by Shiro-san like before when she asked him whether he was a pervert or not.
Shishio let Shiina enter his room, and Shiina looked around Shishio's room, and somehow the impression that she got from this room was very tidy, and at the same time, there was this manly smell that made her face red and her heart beating very fast. She didn't understand why she became nervous suddenly, but there was a strange feeling of excitement that she had never felt before. She might be nervous, but she didn't stop her steps since the more she walked inside, the more she felt strange yet addictive feelings.
However...
"There's nothing here," Shiina said since she didn't see anything that could represent Shishio in this room.
"Yes, I didn't bring many things when I came from Kyoto," Shishio said simply and calmly, but in his eyes, there was a hidden bitterness, but it quickly disappeared.
"Kyoto?" Shiina looked at Shishio curiously, and at the same time, she felt that Shishio's state was a bit wrong, but she didn't know why, and when she wanted to ask him, she was quickly attracted by his next words.
"It's my hometown. It's a great city, if we have time, I'll bring you there," Shishio said.
"Yes." Shiina nodded and somehow she was quite eager to see Shishio's hometown.
"Sit down here," Shishio said and sat on the ground. The ground in his room was covered in tatami floor (a type of mat used as a flooring material in traditional Japanese-style rooms) so it was alright when he sat on the top of it, and it was more comfortable this way.
In truth, it might be possible to let Shiina sit on either his bed or chair, but Shishio felt that it was slightly wrong when he thought that she would sit on his bed, and if she sat on his chair, he felt that their distance was quite far, so he felt that it was better for them to sit on the tatami floor together.
Shiina followed Shishio and sat on the tatami floor, then put her drawing book and pencil on her lap.
"So have you made up your mind whether you're going to return to the world of art or continue with your manga?" Shishio asked.
"I'm going to continue to draw manga," Shiina said without hesitation. Unlike before where there was a hesitation in her eyes, this time, she had made up her mind to continue with her manga.
"Why?" Shishio asked. He knew that Shiina's purpose to come to Japan was to make her painting better so it would be loved by everyone, and because of that she didn't need to draw a manga and he could teach her painting directly, after all, he had a "Painting Mastery" and it would be very easy to teach her.
"I want to understand," Shiina said.
"You want to understand?" Shishio asked with a curious expression.
"Yes." Shiina nodded.
"Good, I'll support you." Shishio nodded and felt that reason was enough for Shiina to learn a manga, after all, he knew that Shiina couldn't understand human emotions, she was very pure, like a baby, or a white canvas without any colors, so it was normal that she couldn't express herself in a better way so those words were enough for him to support her.
"Thank you, Shishio," Shiina said and at the same time, she felt that her heart was very warm at that moment. If she could express herself better, then she would say the reason why she wanted to draw a manga was that she wanted to understand her feelings better.
When Shiina returned to her room to think about Shishio's question, she started to question herself whether she should return to the UK, but when she thought about Shishio, she hesitated, and at the same time, she knew that in this whole world, he might be the only one who could understand her better, especially when she saw the trust and sincere expression when he told her that he was going to support her, she knew that her decision was right so she wanted to stay with him, and at the same time, she also wanted to understand her emotions better.
After she met Shishio, Shiina was wondering why she felt a lot of emotions that she had never felt before, from happy, amazed, annoyed, conflicted, confused, trust, warmth, etc, and in truth, there were a lot of things that she wanted to say to him, but she couldn't say it, or rather she didn't know how to do it. It was also the reason why she wanted to understand and wanted to draw a manga with him beside her.
"So did you bring your manga?" Shishio asked. He thought that Shiina wanted to ask him about his opinion about her manga and in truth, he was also curious about her manga, wondering how bad it was. His words might be rude, but it was the truth, after all, even though she had a talent at drawing, her story-telling ability wasn't very good, and from the story, he knew that she had only become a so-so mangaka, she wasn't that popular, but she wasn't that bad either, she was between in the middle bottom, even though her drawing skill was better than anyone, however, no matter how beautiful manga was, if it wasn't interesting, then it wasn't a good manga.
In his opinion, the manga only needed to be interesting, even if the drawing skill of the mangaka wasn't that good, as long as the story was amazing, then it would become very popular since he remembered that there was also one mangaka that had a very bad drawing skill, but his story was very amazing that someone even redrew that manga and it became a huge hit with tens of millions of sales of copies.
"No." Shiina shook her head gently.
"....." Shishio was speechless then asked, "So do you want to return back to your room now?" He thought that her intention to come here was to tell him about her decision, if so, then it was alright since he knew that it wasn't good to let her stay in his room for a long time.
"No, I want Shishio's help," Shiina said.
"My help? What kind of help?" Shishio asked curiously. 'Is she going to ask me to make her a story?' He thought that was the case, after all, he had told Shiina, Ritsu, and Shiro-san that he was going to write a story before, so he thought that she was going to ask his help or something to write a story, but it seemed that wasn't the case.
"Take it off," Shiina said.
"..." Shishio.
Shiina then touched Shishio's chest and she wasn't sure why, she felt that her heart was beating very fast when she touched his hard and tough chest, but she didn't hate this feeling and became more curious. She then looked at Shishio and asked, "I want to see you naked."
"..." Shishio was speechless and asked, "Didn't I give you my drawing before?"
"But painting and the real thing are different," Shiina said while looking at Shishio's eyes, and somehow, her eyes were a bit unnatural when she said those words, but it wasn't noticed by Shishio.
"....." It might be Shishio's imagination, but this girl might start to use her brain so she could see his body, however, he doubted such a thing would happen, after all, he knew Shiina's personality very well. He didn't say anything, only stared at Shiina's serious expression, wondering whether he could see something on that face.
"I want to see you naked," Shiina repeated her request again.
"............."
Shishio gave up since he couldn't see anything from Shiina's face, and at the same time, he sighed. He had said several times to himself that he didn't want to become a scumbag, but it seemed that fate was laughing at him, and told him to embrace on the path of the scumbag, which made him lost for words at this moment, but he had decided to become one anyway, then what was the use of hesitation?
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